怪怪的

好久没上来写东西了...
今天,我特地上来的...
最近不是很忙但又不是很得空... (=P)
怎么形容呢??? (不知道)
每天都好像有很多心事但又好像没事的...
都搞不清楚自己要什么... (T.T)
最近不知道为什么特别喜欢驾快车...
以前的我根本不可能驾到150ｋｍ／ｈ...
但这几天都是这样...
已经不觉得快了...
是不是傻了呢???
当我在车上时就想要'飞'...
虽然知道不安全但心就是要这样...
怎么办呢???
头痛头痛...

前世今生

雨后初晴....我从书局里走了出来....暖暖的阳光洒在身上....

伸了个懒腰....朝东方走去....

下雨总会让我的心情低落起来....如果有雷声....那我会更伤感

....因为曾经最爱的女孩最爱下雨的日子....却又最怕听到轰隆隆的

雷声....

"不要怕....有我在...."

每次起雷时我总会把她搂在怀里....抱住她哄着她....我喜欢这

样的感觉....因为会让我觉得我真的爱她....可是曾几何时....下着

大雨....鸣着近百分贝的雷声....我仍只像只死狗趴在床上发着愣..

..然后回忆起那一刻....


那天应该不是个值得庆幸的日子....虽然是我的生日....目送她

跟她妹妹出门拿蛋糕后....我就抱着一心的欢喜在厨房里弄了几道菜

....


过了几小时....大门一样深掩着....我开始担心....当接到电话

知道她出事的那一刻....我知道我们将天人永隔....于是....她在我

怀中说完最后的话然后永远的离开了我....


"ㄚ玮....我最喜欢下雨了....因为雨可以把你关在家陪我...."

每次天空的雨珠飘落时....这句年代已久的话语就会在我耳边播

上好几次....然后我就会开始想找杯咖啡喝....希望能藉着咖啡因暂

时痲痹自己的神经....

我讨厌下雨....


走过了几条街....进了一家装潢蛮平淡的咖啡馆里....我....遇

上了一个小女孩....很小很小的一个女孩....


(讨厌....我不要啦....)

我宁静已久的内心世界因这句话起了很大的涟漪....

我忍不住看了那小女孩一眼....而她也不避诲的对我笑了笑....

然后扬起细细的眉毛....轻轻的对我眨了个眼....我....失态了....


<莹莹....是你吗...?>

我有点发抖的声音在寂静的咖啡馆里散了开来....

那女生点点头然后用着神似的神情跟说话方式对我说....

(对啊....我叫一ㄥˊ一ㄥˊ....)

小女孩天真的说着....她不知道她很像我失去的她....虽然脸孔

不像....但动作....说话方式....几乎都一模一样....

小女孩的妈妈看到我这样怪异的举动忙把小女生孩拉了过去....

我给了一个浅浅带着歉意的微笑....朝妇人走了过去....

<我能说个故事给这个美眉听吗...?>

妇人犹疑了会....但还是答应了....因为小女孩说她想听....于

是我在她们对面坐了下来....开始说故事....


<从前从前有个公主爱了一个平民....她跟着平民一起过着困厄的

生活....她们二个人非常相爱....约好要一辈子一起度过....可

是有一次他们走到了一个森林里....公主不小心被猎人设下来抓

动物的陷阱伤了....性命垂垂可危....平民呢....就抱着公主一

直哭一直哭....但公主在怀他怀中说完最后的话之后就到天国去

了....二个人就这样分了开来....

后来平民又遇上很多其它的女孩子....也说了很多其它的誓言..

..可是有一天他遇到了一个很像公主的小女孩....他很高兴....

以为是公主回来找他了....但后来理性的他明白这是不可能的..

..所以他只好把一直藏在心中已久的话对那小女孩说.... >


故事说到着我已经哽咽了....小女孩眨着眼一直等着我说下去..

..那妇人有点忧愁的苦着一张脸....我收拾了一下心情然后开了口..

..

<你好吗...?你过的好吗...?>

小女孩在我说完后眨了下眼睛....然后不知道为什么哭了....妇

人忙抱着她摇啊摇....我则是淡淡的笑着起了身....

临走前....我又问了一句....

<妹妹....你几岁...?>

小女孩不哭了....用手指比个六出来....我笑了笑回到位置上拧

起了外套....然后准备离去....


走到门口时我发现有人拉着我的裤子....低头一看....是刚刚的

小女孩....我笑了笑问她....

<小妹妹....有什么事啊...?>


她想了会然后又眨了下眼睛....用稚嫩的声音对我说....

(我很好....一直都过的很好....ㄚ玮....你要好好加油唷....)


<谢....谢....你....>


眼泪终于忍不住滑落了....小女孩抱住我的脚一会....然后回到

那妇人身边....而我....走出了咖啡店....


看着下过雨的天空....我把外套朝太阳的方向甩了甩....然后踏

着影子离开....

其实....雨后的天空....真的很美....很美....

能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？

能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？

這個男孩太傻，為了一個不愛自己的人付出那麼多！....

現在應該很少這種人嚕..若他就在你身邊的話..記得珍惜他..
曾在女孩的記憶中，有那麼一個人。

「我現在喜歡的人，就是我前面的這位啦！」男孩大聲的說著，指著走在他前頭的女孩。

「神經病！」女孩嘀咕著，快速走開那群跟著起鬨的人群，只當男孩拿她開玩笑。

直到某一天，女孩收到了一封信。


『我是真的喜歡妳！我可以為妳做任何事，只要妳喜欢，我都會去做。
一封信就這樣，沒有署名，短短幾句話，但女孩卻知道是男孩寫的。
『那你能現在跳到馬路中央嗎？ 』
女孩在信紙背面寫上這句話，託人交給男孩。


「我能！妳看著。」男孩看了內容，當著她的面衝進馬路中央。

只聽見震聾欲耳的喇叭聲、刺耳的煞車聲、巨大的碰撞聲，以及映入女孩眼簾倒在血泊中的男孩。

「我真的能為妳做任何事．．．．．．」男孩的話救護車高亢的呼聲中，依舊清楚的傳入女孩耳中。

「是你們家的女兒要我們家的孩子衝進馬路中被車撞的！」
「胡說！明明是你們家的兒子自己衝進去的！」

「什麼胡說！他同學說的你們不是也聽見了嗎？我們家的孩子是看了你們女兒的信才衝進去的！」
「真的是這樣嗎？」女孩的母親回頭看著女孩。

「嗯。」女孩點了頭，淚水也在她低下頭的瞬間，滴上了那張寫著男孩與她的字的信紙，似乎也企圖抹殺掉發生的事實。

「你看吧！你們要怎麼賠我兒子的人生！他再也不能打籃球了．．．．．．」男孩的母親歇斯底里的大喊，哭倒在醫院冷硬的地板上。
「這．．．．．．」女孩的父母無言。

「我要你們的女兒陪著我的兒子，直到他再也不需要她的時候，這是你們女兒欠我們的！」男孩的父親說。

「不行！她不愛你兒子啊！你不能那麼自私！」女孩的母親不捨女孩受這種罪。

「好，我會陪著他。」在眾人驚訝的目光中，女孩答應了。


-------------------------兩年後------------------------


在公園的躺椅上，男孩和女孩靜靜的坐著，輕柔的風撫過他們疲憊的心。
「為什麼喜歡我？」女孩開口了。

「能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？喜歡上了，愛上了，就是了。」男孩淡淡的說。

「如果有一天我有喜歡的人了，你會放我走嗎？」女孩說。

「我從來沒有綁住過妳，是妳自己不放自己走的。」男孩說。
沒有交談了，只有風吹動落葉的颯颯聲。

男孩說對了，兩年前在他醒來後，他就解除了約定，但女孩始終將自己綁在男孩身邊，她愧疚，因為她的一句玩笑話，毀了男孩的夢，男孩再也不能打籃球了。

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然而故事卻不會永遠都是好結局，女孩的心給了另一個人，沒有給肯為她付出一切的男孩。


「你為什麼當初要聽我的話！你怎麼那麼笨！」女孩跪倒在地上哭泣。

「我．．．．．．只是愛妳。」男孩說，伸手想將女孩扶起。
「我不要你的愛！」女孩甩開男孩的手。


「你的愛太強烈，害慘了我，你知不知道啊！你知不知道啊！」女孩歇斯底里的哭喊著。
「我．．．．．．」男孩說不出話來。


「為什麼是我！為什麼是我！你為什要愛上我！我討厭你這樣！我討厭！討厭！」女孩用盡所有力氣大聲嘶吼，轉身跑了出去。

女孩的愧疚太深，她沒辦法打開心結，她因為責任而留在男孩身邊，直到她喜歡上別人了，她再也不能忍受不能和喜歡的人在一起的日子，所以她崩潰了，然而也傷了男孩的心。

女孩使勁的跑，用力的跑，淚水模糊她的視線，心中的煩亂讓她沒看對她迎面駛來的卡車．．．．．．
「小心！」伴隨著警告，有人推開了她。

熟悉的碰撞聲響起，再一次，女孩回頭看，再一次的看見倒在殷紅的血泊中。

「我真的能為妳做任何事．．．．．．」男孩說，嘔出一口血，昏了過去。

「不要！」女孩受不了再一次的刺激，她尖叫，使盡所有力氣的尖叫。

「太遲了，肋骨插進內臟，內出血止不住，沒救了。」
「那麼年輕就．．．．．．難道真的沒辦法了嗎？」

醫院裡的人議論紛紛，句句傳入女孩的耳中，她的淚水決提，濕了她的襯衫。


如果她當初能理智一點就不會發生了，如果男孩不要愛上她就好了，她哭，哭的歇斯底里，因為這次男孩真的要離開她了，他現在只能等待死亡。

「我想妳應該進去看他．．．．．．」男孩的父親說，他的悲痛清楚的寫在臉上。

「好．．．．．．」女孩語不成聲，她只能不停的流淚。
女孩進了病房，見到男孩蒼白的臉，她淚水流的更兇。
「不要哭．．．．．．」男孩心疼的舉手擦拭女孩的淚。
「你好傻．．．．．．」女孩哭個不停。

「或許吧．．．．．．這個給妳．．．．．．」男孩張開緊握的手，一封沾了血的信。


「這是最後一封了，好好的看好嗎？」男孩說，眼角留下一滴淚。


「好．．．．．．」女孩接下那封信，清澈的淚水滴在信封上，混著暗紅乾涸的血。
「我真的能為妳做任何事．．．．．．」


這是男孩的最後一句話，他再也不能待在女孩身邊，他走了，女孩昏了過去。

『給最愛的妳：

愛上妳，多半是痛苦，我知道妳的心永遠不會交給我，可是我還是好愛好愛
妳．．．．．．

當初如果知道我的行為會讓妳無法自由的飛，我不會去做。
妳知道嗎？只要妳高興，我真的能為妳做任何事。

我知道當妳看這封信時，妳已經有喜歡的人了，放自己自由好嗎？不要在強迫自己留在我身邊，我希望妳能活的快樂。
不要問我為什麼那麼傻。

能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？喜歡上了，愛上了，就是了。

我會一直守護著妳，因為妳是我最愛的人，我真的能為妳做任何事，不管過了多少年，我都不曾改變。』


女孩收起了信，她的淚水已經不再流下，男孩離開她已經五年了，五年的時光也讓她從一個年輕的女孩蛻變為成熟的女人。

女孩的命，是男孩救的，但女孩的心，自始自終都不曾落在男孩身上。

『能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？喜歡上了，愛上了，就是了。』在蔚藍的天空裡，風裡似乎帶來男孩的低語。
女孩不能選擇，男孩也不能選擇，谁都不能選擇。

hapi brthday sharm

sunday is sharm brthday d ...
so saturday nite we plan to celebrate for him ...
so at nite, we gather at eng ann 1st ...
then we plan to go wher ...
after a very long discussion, so we decided to go laundry wan ...
so we all go to shaun house to put our car there ...
onli michael, jeremy and ivan driving ...
i follow ivan lor ...
coz later to choose d ...
michael lead the way coz we all dono how to go ...
michael drive very fast ...
so everyone oso drive very fast ...
i think they drive around 160 km/h ...
i like the wind man ... ^^
we follow follow then the wei loong do something stupid and make us lost michael ...
so we try to catch up but lastly we go the wrong way ...
then we all keep saying wei loong ... =P
then jeremy come d ...
luckily han jien noe the way to the curve ...
so we all follow jeremy car lor ...
turn here turn there and reach the destination at last ... T.T
we go to the laundry but they don let us open bottle ...
so we change place to the sanctuary ...
haha ...
at last we can go in lor ...
we go in d then move to the vip place there ...
we open 3 bottle of whisky ...
we all got jien, shaun, lion, panda, dog, crab, ys, mike , tai lou, brthday boy, kl, act smart, ivan and me ...
they drink and drink and drink ...
mmg keng lar them ... ^^
i onli drink one glass onli ...
u noe lar me ...
cnt drink wan ...
very easy to drunk wn ... =P
we all dancing there ...
act smart, ivan and shaun go dance wit a gal ...
donno who is she ... ^^
we dance for around 3 hours ...
my leg damn tired ...
time past so fast ...
reach 2:47 d ...
then all of us wan to go back d ...
we all go back to shaun house and take back our car and went back d ...
not bad lar 1st time go clubbing wit them ...
hope to hang out wit u guys more ...
very late d ...
nid to sleep d ...
tomoro morning got vb sumo ... =P
nite nite ...

gather wit frens

today, reach home super tired d ...
but quite hapi today ...
can c bak one old frens ...
she change college d but come back to visit us today ...
but meet her awhile then nid to go back rest d ...
reach home then i plan to wash my car ...
coz it look very dirty d ...
wash and wash ...
one and a half hour jus past by like tht ...
i oso donno i edi spent so much time washing the car ...
after washed then go rest lor ...
watch the guy single for the badminton ...
lucky Lee Chong Wei won against the Lee Hyun Il ...
he win the 1st match 21-18 but lost the 2nd match wit onli 13-21 ...
he faught back quite hard at the 3rd match with the score of 21-13 ...
he look so tired but he is so hapi ...
watch d mood bcome not bad d ...
^^
then plan go take a bath ...
but sudenly receive a msg from KL ...
he ask me to go 'lim teh' at bkt tgi ...
then ok lor ...
after i finish bath d i straight went out d ...
1st we gather at the station one there ...
we drink and chatting there ...
but until 11:40 something, they want to change place d ...
so we went to the Mc-Donald and continue chatting there ...
the time past very fast lar ...
awhile onli then reach 1:40 d ...
then everyone tomoro morning got things to do ...
so we went back d ...
can gather wit u all ...
i reli having much fun ...
hope to hang out wit u guys more ...
^^

special dictionary

Go to www.urbandictionary.com, and type in your answer to each question in the search box. Only use the first three results.

1. Your name? Chin Yang

*not yet defined

2. Nickname? Yang

*Yang
~ a person with extreme skills or talent.
~ is a slang term for chinese food.
~ the opposite of Ying


3. Relationship? Single

* When you are currently not in a relationship with a significant other.
It usually does not bother you, but the problems start when selfish and inconsiderate assholes rub in the fact that they have someone, and start saying they "love their oh-so-sexy boyfriends/girlfriends" and start going on and on about what he/she does for them, CAN do, and blah blah.
NOBODY CARES HOW GREAT HE/SHE IS TO YOU!! If you're taken, and love your partner a lot, then good for you, but for goodness's sakes, at least show some consideration for SINGLE people! Some of these people may even be heartbroken ones, who have been abused by past partners, or just simply some that are sick of hearing about some stupid narrow-sighted people who only see either how "hot" their partner is, or how much money he/she has.
Talk about your partner if you want to.. but.. just calm down about it. Your life does not fucking revolve around him/her, so don't act like it.

* it means that you are alone not lonley


4. You describe your best friend as? the best

* A stupid meme that is used on imageboards, such as 4chan and 7chan, that just repeats "the best" over and over again. "The best" is from the song "Best of You" by Foo Fighters.
It is usually used when someone mentions "the best" anywhere in their post.

* a person who is amazingly fantastic, often used insincerely after someone has done you a favor who isn't really amazing


5. What should you be doing? Studying

*An excuse you give your friends when you want to stay home alone and masturbate. Also known as 'reading' 'cleaning your room' or writing a term paper.

* a term used in reference to doing school work. it also ends in the word dying, and slowly leads to it.

* Doing anything other than studying;

6. Favourite food? cake

* kilo of cocaine.

* his is a lie! Everything you have been told about the cake is a lie, do not listen.

* Sweat pastry that has the power to bring people together


7. Home state? Selangor

*not yet defined


8. Finish the line: "the best thing[s] in life is/are __?" meet YOU & my frens

*not yet defined


9. One word to describe yourself? Stupid

* Someone who has to look up "stupid" in the dictionary because they don't know what it means.

* The President, George W. Bush

* Someone of low intelligence.

10. How do you feel today? Moody

*When a person's emotions go from extreme high to extreme low in a short period of time. This variation can sometimes be scary, irritating, or even annoying!! >_<

* To lie excessively. A compulsive lying disorder.

* stolen


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Lion

a nice song

lately i keep listen to a song ...
the song name is my love will get you home ...
this song is sang by christine glass ...
tis song is so meaningful ...
at 1st i onli listen to tis song once onli and tht time din pay so much attention on it ...
so din reli understand tis song ...
but lately my mei intro tis song to me ...
she ask me go listen and i fall in love in tis song d ...
i feel like tis song reli gif courage to me ...
if u don blif then go listen lor ...
may b the song will help u oso ...
^^
i feel like tis song is a christian song ...
i feel the lyric is saying about JESUS ...
tht is wat i think onli lar ...
everytimes i listen to tis song ...
i will think back alot things ...
but i feel very peaceful in my heart ...
the song reli help me alot ...
it help me to release the stress deep in my heart ...
it is a wonderful and nice song ...
if u free can go find tis song o ...
MY LOVE WILL GET YOU HOME !!!