moody again

i hav turn to better mood last few days but lately got many things happen ...
haiz ...
my mood turn to bad again ...
i reli nid a very very very cloz fren stay wit me lar ...
i can tell him/her everything ...
coz i donno who to tell le ...
haiz ...
very suffering if i din say it out ...
but i donno who to say and how to say it out ...
so keep suffering like tht ...
everything jus happen at once again ...
in the way i hate the most ...
hate myself ...
super pig ...
so damn lazy ...
haiz ...
hate hate hate ...
T.T